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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on November 10, 2025 by tricialathrop

November 9

Yesterday, I went with some friends to ride a pontoon boat on Tellico Lake and Tellico River. The day was beautiful, not too hot or cold, and the colors while a little past peak color, radiated with oranges and yellows.

Last year we planned to join Dan and Donna on a boat to take in the colors of the season, pre-diagnosis. Unfortunately, Norm just did not feel well and we had to cancel.

So being on the boat was a bitter-sweet experience. I enjoyed the day and the fellowship, I felt sorrow that Norm and I did not share the experience together. He would have enjoyed the day on the water and his photos would have been fantastic.

Today, still in a…not sure how to describe my mood…not really sad or pensive, but not really cheery either.

I took a drive on the Tail of the Dragon. Norm did it every year in his mustang, 11 miles of curves. It’s a dream destination of many on motorcycles and sports cars. I made sure to pull over for those going faster than me, so I didn’t hinder their joy of the ride. Norm and I once got behind an RV who was freaking out over the curves.

From there I turned onto the Foothills Parkway. I stopped at one of the turnoffs, where Norm and I would have lunch and enjoy the scenery.

The best way to describe my mood is it’s weird. Some days I do fine, some days I’m in tears and unable to focus…I come back to this, adjusting to my new normal will take time. I’m still processing how to move forward.

I am thankful for the life I had with Norm, lots of good memories.

I pray for the Lord’s grace to walk this walk.

I rejoice that God knows what’s coming my way, and He has promised to be with me through it all.

Where’s the joy? It is in the hope that Jesus provided when He came to earth to demonstrate God’s love for us.

Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me; You will stretch forth Your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and Your right hand will save me. The Lord will accomplish what concerns me; Your lovingkindness, O Lord, is everlasting.

Psalm 138:7-8

Foothills Parkway

Tellico

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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on November 7, 2025 by tricialathrop

November 7

Things seem to go really well, then all of a sudden, a word, song or picture will cause me to tear up and sometimes full fledged sobbing. I used to look at the crying emoji which shows waterfalls falling out of the eyes and think, who cries like that? I do.

The last two weeks have been more difficult because this is when we dealt with the diagnosis and his first treatment. Scary times, but continued hope for a total restoration to health.

Now, I’m facing the holiday season without him. I really did not expect last year to be our last Thanksgiving together, our last Christmas together…but then how does one prepare for that?

I’ve made plans. My daughter will come in for Thanksgiving and we’ll go to my niece’s new home. My brother and his wife will be there, as well as my sister and her beau, along with nieces and nephews. I’ll be surrounded by family for the day.

My daughter will help me decorate for Christmas, and we’ll do some Black Friday shopping. We do a lot of people watching and go out to eat. Christmas will be spent with my children and grandchildren.

Plans are great, but can’t prevent the memories washing in like a flood. This is the price of love, I cherish the memories even though tears accompany the memories. Norm and I had a lot of fun together. I married him because he made me laugh every day.

I am thankful for the almost 45 years that I had with Norm. He was a good man with a good heart.

I pray for those of us who will be facing the holidays without a loved one. Though the days can be tough, God is able to comfort us in our grief.

I rejoice that the season ahead gives us time to consider the hope that came with the birth of Jesus Christ, the promised Messiah who loved us enough to die on the cross so that we could walk in relationship with God.

Where’s the joy? It is in the memories, both good and bad. God blessed me with my marriage to Norm.

It is good to give thanks to the Lord and to sing praises to Your name, O Most High.

To declare Your loving kindness int he morning and Your faithfulness by night, with the ten-stringed lute and with the harp, with resounding music upon the lyre.

For You, O Lord, have made me glad by what You have done, I will sing for joy at the works of Your hands.

How great are Your works, O Lord! Your thoughts are very deep.

Psalm 92:1-5

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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on October 31, 2025 by tricialathrop

October 31

This time last year, we were in the hospital waiting to hear what treatment plans they had for Norm…but that’s not what I’m going to talk about today.

Last Sunday my son got married to the love of his life. I’m thrilled with his choice, they accept one another and yet find a way to encourage each other to be the best they can be. So sweet.

The week leading up to the wedding I cried a lot, not because they were getting married, but because Norm would not be there. He approved of Mai from the moment he met her, seeing the good she did for Robert. He would have rejoiced with them, giving his blessing on their marriage.

I was concerned that I would just break into sobs at the wedding. Every time I listened to the dance I was to do with Rob, I wept big tears. I had a lot of people praying that I would keep it together. A few tears, yes, sobbing…that would draw attention away from the celebration.

Rehearsal and wedding day, the Lord allowed the joy of the celebration to overtake the sorrow of Norm not attending. He was acknowledged throughout the day…tears, not sobs. Rob and I danced, laughing because we really didn’t practice much. We enjoyed the time.

My daughters struggled with the father/daughter dance, Aimee remembering her wedding day dance with Norm, Jennifer in sorrow that she would never have the chance to dance with him at her wedding.

Norm would have enjoyed it all. He would have laughed and told stories of Rob as a child, as only he could tell them. He would have danced with Aimee and Jennifer. He would have danced with Sierra and Sawyer with joyful abandon.

I’m sure he watched from heaven, loving the joy of the day.

Where’s the joy?

I am thankful that Robert found Mai, the love of his life.

I pray for them, that they will enjoy one another through the days to come, the good and the bad.

I rejoice that God continues to pave the way for me to walk this walk, going ahead of me to smooth away rough spots, and walking with me in the times when the rough spots remain.

Where’s the joy? Our love for one another continues in our children and grandchildren and we are able to rejoice in the celebrations of life. We are blessed with the choices our children have made in their partners.

This was the Psalm I read this morning. I need to remember that God has this, that He will continue to help me through…just like He did for the wedding.

Hear my cry, O God; Give heed to my prayer.

From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

For You have been a refuge for me, a tower of strength against the enemy.

let me dwell in Your tent forever; Let me take refuge in the shelter of Your wings.

For You have heard my vows, O God; You have given me the inheritance of those who fear Your name.

You will prolong the king’s life; His years will be as many generations.

He will abide before God forever; Appoint lovingkindness and truth that they may preserve him.

So I will sing praise to Your name forever, That I may pay my vows day by day.

Psalm 61

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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on October 21, 2025 by tricialathrop

October 20

I’d describe this week as bittersweet. My son will marry the love of his life this week. Mai is a delight. Norm often said that she was good for Robert. I see that they bring out the best in each other.

I can’t help but consider the fact that Norm will miss this celebration. He would have come up with a wonderful welcome and the perfect inclusion of events in Robert’s life that would have been appropriate and made people laugh.

I can’t even think about the day without crying…I’m hoping for emotional stamina to make it through the day without making a crying scene. Tears yes, uncontrollable sobbing…no.

I stopped on the way to visit my daughter and grandchildren. We went to a “Punkin’ Farm”. They had a corn pit where the kids could play, a fenced in area with corn kernels about 8 inches deep. It was like sand at the beach, they rolled in it, piled it into piles, and filled their pockets. Sawyer pretended to be one of the skeletons coming out of the ground in Halloween decorations.

I could see Norm in the corn with them, making them squeal with laughter as they filled his pockets with corn and covered his legs. Norm would have encouraged Sawyer to jump between the rolls of hay like Sierra. They would have done several trips down the giant slide and actually shot the corn cobs through the targets.

As I said, a bittersweet week.

Where’s the joy?

I am thankful for Mai joining our family.

I pray for the strength to hold it together so that the wedding will not become about my sorrow, but about the joy of Rob and Mai finding each other.

I rejoice that even though we go through times of sorrow, we can find joy amidst the sorrow.

Where’s the joy? We will celebrate the union of Mai and Robert.

“This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24

Remembering Norm and celebrating Rob and Mai…bittersweet. it’s all good!

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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on October 11, 2025 by tricialathrop

October 10

I’ve struggled this whole week with feeling overwhelmed. It reached a point of paralysis, where I didn’t have the mindset or the energy to do anything. I’ve got a lot on my plate, and I found myself unable to move forward.

This morning during my quiet time with the Lord, I wrote in my journal that I was edgy and not at peace. I needed hope. I read Psalm 70 in which David wrote, “I am afflicted and needy.”

The middle of the Psalm deals with David praying against the enemies that humiliated and shamed him. I thought, I don’t have enemies other than my own pride and procrastination, but those very things hold me back, causing shame when I think I’ve failed, and keep me from moving forward.

But the rest of the Psalm, the request for help from God, knowing that God is my help and my deliverer, ended with the plea, “Do not delay.”

I listened to a book last week, “The Power of Writing It Down” by Allison Fallon. So I decided to write down what had me stressed. I found that by writing it out, it wasn’t quite as overwhelming as I had thought. While it’s a lot, it’s manageable.

So once again, the Lord gave me what I needed before I knew the need.

Where’s the joy?

I am thankful that God remains faithful to me and always provides what I need.

I pray for a heart to glorify God in all that I say and do.

I rejoice that He is my salvation, my fortress and my deliverer.

Where’s the joy? It’s in knowing that God is always there, even when I’m stressed and feeling sorry for myself.

O God, hasten to deliver me; O Lord, hasten to my help.

Let those be ashamed and humiliated who seek my life; Let those be turned back and dishonored who delight in my hurt.

Let those be turned back because of their shame, who say “Aha, aha!”

Let all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; And let those who love Your salvation say continually, “Let God be magnified.”

But I am afflicted and needy; hasten to me O God!

You are my help and my deliverer; O Lord, do not delay.

Psalm 70

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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on September 29, 2025 by tricialathrop

September 28

Some days I go along just fine, and then the pain of the loss and the ensuing loneliness hit me like a ton of bricks. It seems that I won’t be able to stand under the heaviness of it all.

Intellectually I can reason it all out…this is normal. It’s just a feeling that will pass, but in the midst it is a struggle. My tendency is to isolate, and that feeds the feeling of loneliness. Reaching out is difficult and runs the chance of rejection. Rejection is a strong word, people have busy lives and are not responsible for my emotional well being.

I’m learning how to walk this road and deal with the times of intense loneliness. I won’t always be able to count on family and friends, but I can always count on the Lord to help me through.

Where’s the joy?

I am thankful that I am surrounded by family and friends who care.

I pray for courage and strength to make it through the tough times, and to remember to reach out and encourage others in their times of trial.

I rejoice in the faithfulness of God, who is with me on my loneliest days and has promised to never leave me nor forsake me.

Where’s the joy? Today, I muddled through without a lot of joy. And that’s okay, I have hope for tomorrow.

But let all who take refuge in You be glad, let them ever sing for joy;

And may You shelter them, that those who love Your name may exult in You.

Psalm 5:11

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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on September 22, 2025 by tricialathrop

September 21

This time last year, Norm was itching and in pain, hardly sleeping. It took until late October to get a diagnosis, but in the meantime, we tried to figure out what was going on. Nothing we tried worked and each test meant a ten day wait for a result, which led to another test, then another, and another…it seemed endless.

Now, I’m trying to move on, not sit in the house with the curtains closed, watching endless TV and crying.

I went square dancing in Knoxville on Market Square. Norm and I went with my sister for the last few years. It’s always fun, and one doesn’t need a partner because there are a number of singles who just like to dance. Part of the evening are two waltzes. Norm would dance with me because I love to dance. He struggled with anything that involved rhythm…in second grade his teacher took away his rhythm sticks and it caused him to be hesitant to dance or even clap to music. But, he would dance with me.

They ended the night with The Tennessee Waltz, and as I watched the dancers, I cried. Norm and I went to Mighty Musical Mondays at the Tennessee Theater and the mighty Wurlitzer organ, Dave, the organist, always closed the show with the Tennessee Waltz. Norm was amazed that I knew the words and would sing along. When we danced on the square, I would sing it. But this time, the words, “my friend stole my sweetheart from me” hit home. It wasn’t a friend, but it was in the Lord’s plan to take Norm home to walk in the garden with Him.

This morning I considered staying home but went to church anyway. The first song we sang in worship was in 3/4 time, a waltz. The Lord reached out to let me know that He has me covered. He will walk with me through this time of adjustment and be with me until He takes me home to walk in the garden with Him alongside Norm.

Where’s the joy?

I am thankful for God’s faithfulness to remind me that He knows all that I’m going through and He has a plan.

I pray for the wisdom to walk each day, noticing the people around me who may need encouragement just to make it through the day.

I rejoice that God not only has His eye on me, He rejoices over me with singing.

Where’s the joy? It’s all around, I just need to open my eyes to see it.

The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the afflicted; He has sent me to bind up the hearts of the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives and freedom to prisoners; to proclaim the favorable year of the Lord and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all who mourn, to grant to those who mourn in Zion, giving them a garland instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, the mantle of praise instead of the spirit of fainting. So they will be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified. Isaiah 61:1-3.

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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on August 12, 2025 by tricialathrop

August 11

I’ve been sorting and packing up Norm’s computer gaming gear. I have his photos on discs, thanks to my kids. I haven’t looked at those yet, thousands to sort through. It will take time and more emotional stamina than I have right now.

Going through Norm’s things is an emotional process that I don’t want to do, but necessary.

I’m finished traveling for a few months. There is a lot to be done and I am so good at procrastinating. Little by little I’m coming out of the fog. Each day I’m trying to do at least one thing to move forward.

Where’s the joy?

I am thankful for the memories I have with Norm. We had a good 45 years together, a lot of fun along with a few struggles. I am glad for the sorrow I feel for it reminds me of the love we had.

I pray for courage to move forward and emotional stamina to endure the pain from losing Norm.

I rejoice that whatever comes my way, God will be with me and will take care of me…even when I don’t see His hand at work.

Where’s the joy? Norm is walking with the Lord in His garden, no more pain and no more suffering.

Revelation 21:1–7 (NASB95): The New Heaven and Earth
1 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth; for the first heaven and the first earth passed away, and there is no longer any sea.
2 And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, made ready as a bride adorned for her husband.
3 And I heard a loud voice from the throne, saying, “Behold, the tabernacle of God is among men, and He will dwell among them, and they shall be His people, and God Himself will be among them,
4 and He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be any death; there will no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away.”
5 And He who sits on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” And He said, “Write, for these words are faithful and true.”
6 Then He said to me, “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give to the one who thirsts from the spring of the water of life without cost.
7 “He who overcomes will inherit these things, and I will be his God and he will be My son.

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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on July 25, 2025 by tricialathrop

July 24

I keep hoping this is all a bad dream and I will awaken to find Norm still with me.

I drove to Waterrock Knob where we spread his ashes. Unlike that morning, the fog had lifted and I could see the mountains.

Where’s the joy? Some days are tougher than others and it’s difficult to be joyful.

I am thankful for the promises of God which He will keep regardless of how I feel.

I pray for courage to walk each day, remembering that God has a plan for my life moving forward.

I rejoice in the Lord God, for all my hope is in Him.

Where’s the joy? It is found in Christ, regardless of the circumstances. Sometimes it comes easily, other times, it is a choice.

Do not be grieved, for the joy of the Lord is your strength. Nehemiah 8:10

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Where’s the Joy? A Widow’s Walk

Posted on July 14, 2025 by tricialathrop

July 14

Today would have been Norm’s 69th birthday. Last year we rode the Alpine Loop and enjoyed spending time around the Million Dollar Highway. No sign of anything seriously wrong.

I decided not to stay home and am heading to a writer’s conference. Today I get to meet up with a former pastor. Not sure how well I’ll hold it together, but I’ve learned that it’s okay to cry in front of others…can’t stop the tears anyway.

Where’s the joy?

I am thankful that I have outlets for my grief and I don’t have to go it alone.

I pray for strength and wisdom as I walk this week.

I rejoice in the God of my salvation. Because of Jesus’ death and resurrection, Norm is celebrating in heaven with Him, having seen Jesus face to face.

Where’s the joy? It’s in the hope that only Jesus provides.


See how great a love the Father has bestowed on us, that we would be called children of God; and such we are. For this reason the world does not know us, because it did not know Him.
Beloved, now we are children of God, and it has not appeared as yet what we will be. We know that when He appears, we will be like Him, because we will see Him just as He is.
And everyone who has this hope fixed on Him purifies himself, just as He is pure.
Everyone who practices sin also practices lawlessness; and sin is lawlessness.
You know that He appeared in order to take away sins; and in Him there is no sin.

1 John 3:1-5

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