November 13
The last two weeks, I have felt alone. I’ve been fighting the urge to have what I call a Patti Pity Party. When it hits, I’m easily offended…I tend to back off from friendships…I get into a worse scenario mindset.
A circumstance arose in my house that took some effort and it became a mental and emotional challenge that took me by surprise. It’s been removed, all is good.
While I dealt with it, I had a positive attitude. God provided what I needed before I knew the need…He’s done that often as I’ve walked this path during Norm’s illness and after he passed. I was able to focus on what God provided, and less on the need.
The other night I lost my phone, which is found now, but while it was missing for several hours, I was out of contact. No way to find it. I couldn’t call anyone who has access to my location. I don’t know phone numbers even if I had access to a landline. I had plans to meet my sister, so I waited until she got off work. With her access, we found it.
The reality is that I’ve not been alone. I had lunch with friends, my kids and I went to play Scooby Doo Mini Golf, which Norm would have loved. My sister and I had pizza together and played a game.
Despite the reality, today I’ve struggled. And that’s okay, life has its ups and downs…My hope remains in Jesus Christ who has promised to never leave me nor forsake me.
Why do you say, O Jacob, and speak, O Israel, “My way is hidden from the Lord, and my right is disregarded by my God”? Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:27-31
