June 20
Tough week! Started with spreading Norm’s ashes at an overlook on the Blue Ridge Parkway. Followed by daily turning to speak to Norm and realizing he’s not here.
Then yesterday I went to get my mammogram and bone density tests. Those took place in the place where Norm had his final pet scan that showed that the cancer was mostly gone and the treatment was working. Then the receptionist asked if I was married…not anymore, widow. She came from behind the desk to give me a hug…I couldn’t hold the tears back.
Tomorrow would have been our 45th anniversary. Pre cancer we had plans to return to Hawaii. My girls and grands are coming to spend some time with me tomorrow, so I don’t have to face it alone.
Where’s the joy?
I am thankful for the memories that I have with Norm, and that I miss him. How sad to not miss the one you love.
I pray for courage for the next few days, and for wisdom to walk this path I did not choose.
I rejoice that God provides all I need, sometimes before I realize what I need.
Where’s the joy? It’s in the memories, lots of good memories.
TRICIA LATHROP 