February 28
Today was to be Norm’s last chemo treatment, but here we are in the ICU, intubated. Disappointing that we were so close. He seems to get better then crashes. Do close and yet so far.
He has a breathing tube, a feeding tube and all kinds of IVs with antibiotics and antifungals as well as an artery monitor to keep closer tabs on BP and oxygen levels. His neck is swollen and he continues to sleep, I’m hoping he has pleasant dreams. His oxygen levels continue to fluctuate.
This is painful to watch. I’ve played his music all day, hoping to give him some encouragement in music. I talk to him, just in case he can hear me and knows he is loved.
They did another bronchial analysis, hoping for answers. I don’t know what they might find that they haven’t before.
The way I see it, the only way he is pulling through is if the Lord reaches down another time and heals his body. Of real concern, his lungs, we don’t know how much they have been damaged, if at all.
If he lives through this, will he be able to hike again? Will he be willing to go to scenic overlooks and be in a wheelchair to get some photographs? Will he be able to continue with woodworking, and finish Sawyer’s bed? Will he be able to continue with his chemotherapy and be fully healed head to toe?
I’m still just walking each day, one step in front of the other, doing what needs to be done and trying to get the rest I need so I can continue each day.
I don’t know what each day will bring, but God does. I know He wants God’s best for Norm.
Where’s the joy?
I am thankful for the staff that is taking such good care of Norm with a good attitude.
I pray for the Lord to do what is best for Norm, a miracle healing is my preference, BUT only God knows what is truly best.
I rejoice that…to be honest, I’m not rejoicing. BUT I know that God remains faithful and He is at work in Norm’s life and in mine.
Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory forever and ever. Amen. 1 Timothy 1:17
TRICIA LATHROP 