March 5
I spent the night at the hospital. He would not have wanted this. He has no control over his own decisions, suffering the ministrations of nurses to his personal hygiene, however caring, still an indignity to a modest man. The nurse said they might try up to 14 days…that is too long.
He just stares off into space, barely even making eye contact anymore.
Lord, you know what’s best for Norm. I don’t understand why God is allowing this.
Interrupted by the breathing trial. He passed, barely, but passed. The tube is out.
I should be excited, BUT is this a spin around the gently rising and falling part of the roller coaster ride to its conclusion, or another climb to a big drop. I just don’t know.
Still no answer as to the cause of all this. Even the samples they sent to the big research facility came back with no conclusions. There is still inflammation in the lungs, so they are trying a new round of steroids, along with the antibiotics and anti fungals. Hopefully something will work and he will be able to move forward.
Norm is wanting to eat, a big improvement. He’s on the heavy duty oxygen, just not with the tube. Hopefully it will be able to come down so he can go to the rehab, then home, then three more chemo treatments.
I’m tired and cautiously hopeful.
Where’s the joy?
I am thankful for a successful extubation.
I pray that Norm gains strength in body and spirit so that he can enjoy the life he desires to live.
I rejoice that God is in control.
Where’s the joy? Today, the news is good.
The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness. He will not always strive with us, nor will He keep His anger forever.
He has not dealt with us according to our sins, nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His lovingkindness toward those who fear Him.
As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us. Just as a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him. For He Himself knows our Fram; He is mindful that we are but dust.
As for man, his days are like grass; as a flower of the field, so he flourishes. When the wind has passed over it, it is no more, and its place acknowledges it no longer.
But the lovingkindness of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear Him, and His righteousness to children’s children, to those who keep His covenant and remember His precepts to do them.
Psalm 103:8-18
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